Tuesday, November 13, 2018

Boredom & finding yourself

Well, years  have  passed  since I last  penned  anything in my  blog.  Somehow  I  got  sucked  into  the   much  talked  about "Rat race"  I  guess.  Success.. I have  had   a  few  this  2  years. Matter  of  fact ,  I am  beginning  to  enjoy  my  work  more  than  I used  to. So  why  boredom, you ask? Still haven't  quite  figured  it  out ..yet.

Home Cafe  It came as a  pleasant  surprise   that  I  actually  enjoyed  frequenting  cafes  with  nice  ambience (who doesn't?) Then  it  struck  me  that  I   am  confining  myself  to only   the  living  area   and  kitchen  most  of  the time.  So,  I  narrowed  down  the  possibilities  of  what  cafes  have  to offer  and   what  my  apartment  lacks.  For  starters,  I did  a  home  makeover  by  changing   the curtains  which   were   faded  and  torn  and  had  them  replaced    with  shearers   instead.  Then  I  built  myself  a  mini  forest    at the  balcony  to obscure  "Human Baboons"  from  peeping  into  my  apartment.  Next  on the  agenda  was  the  dining  area  which  had   never  been  used  since  "the piece  of  shit's"  demise.


Add  a  table  cloth, some  money  plant  on the  table  and   threw  in some  nice  floral  scented  aroma  therapy. Nice  indeed. Rearranging  or  refurbishing  is  easy,  now  I  must  make  it  a  point   to occupy  those  places  as  intended.  So  I  made  sure  to  have  cooked  dinner  every night  on the  dining  table  and  not  in the  living  area.  There  is   a  place  for  everything, they say.






Bake a Cake  Tried   my  hands  on baking  and  not  just  any  type  of  baking  but  flourless  baking. You  heard  right. That  should  do it  for  my  insatiable  appetite  for  "Latte and  cake"  teatime  moments. What  better  cake  to bake  other than  Hazelnut,  carrot, apples  with  chocolate  chips in it. I  am  rather  proud  of  what  I  have achieved  so far.

Yoga  Hell YES!  Yoga  @ 45. It  is never  too late  to  learn   something  new  and  I chose  Yoga. Why?  I  was   getting  bored  with  the   routine  I  put  myself  thru  with  Bob Harper's  Blackfire  and   kettlebell  is    losing   its  motivation  and  I   thought  back  about  Dr Berg's  advise    on  exercising. It seems  if  we   put  our body  thru  a  lot  of stresses , our  body  may  not  respond  in  the  manner  we  would  normally  expect  instead  it  will  be  counter productive to  achieving our  goals.  So,  that  was   the  catalyst  to how Yoga  and   Qi  Gong  came  into  the  picture. By the   way,  I  learnt  Yoga from  Utube   and   it   was    truly   an eye  opener.   Yoga  is  not  easy as  it  seems. In the  course  of  learning  something new,  of  course  injuries  are  aplenty,  some  misses  and  some  quite  dramatic. (Crash...Blackout..chipped  tooth  and   a dented  flooring  to remind  me  of  my bruised  Ego)  Say  what  you  like  but  I taught  myself  how  to do a  HEAD STAND  and   NO,  it  didn't  cause   the  crash,  if  you are  wondering.  I  think  the hardest  part  was   the   Chatoorangas,  the  wheel  is  still a  work  in progress.   Downward  dog  too initially  created  so  much  discomfort  as  the wrists  weren't   strong  enough   to withstand  the  body weight  bearing  down  so  intensely.  Many  times  I  caught myself  holding  my breath  instead   of breathing  easy. It  was   quite  a  learning  curve  and  I can  safely say  that  I  am  much stronger   now  and  far  more    enjoying   the flow  or rhythm  of Yoga.  My  take  on  this  learning  curve   is  it  truly  works  on your  flexibility  and  areas  that  you  never knew  existed. Don't  give  up,  if  you are  not able  to do  a certain move.  Keep  at  it  and  it will  come to you eventually.

Reading  I  can't   seem  to focus or  I  lose  focus  the minute  I  flipped the  pages. I  think  it is  probably    because  my mind  has  lost  its  focus  and  boredom  is  setting  in...( I  hope  it  is  not depression) Books  I read reminded  me  so much of the  people  I came  in touch  during  the  course  of  my  work.  Watching TV  too  isn't  helping   as  I  get  a sense of   losing  hope  when  everything  that  stands for GOOD, JUSTICE and  HOPE   are  just  battered  day  by  day. Countless  deaths, political  maneuvering,  Trade wars and  more  lies, one  after  the other. The media   too  is  so  overly  engrossed  on  what  Trump  did or  did not do.  So  much  effort  goes  into  assembling  panels  of  people  who  are  supposedly   "Experts in their  respective  field" just  to  analyze  what  is  going on  in  the POTUS's  mind. Who would  have  thought  that  Xenophobics  live  among  us. I  was  naïve   thinking   that I  could  explain  my way  into  some  of  their   hearts  and  try   to make   sense  of  what  makes   a  Chinese  person Chinese. I   have to  say  that  I  am  more  convinced  now  more than  ever   that  there  are  many  people who  are just  so complicit  and  ignorant about  the  world and   the  people  around them. The cliché   of  learning  the culture  of  people  when travelling   the  world  is  often  heard  but  I  think  it  is  exactly  that, just a  cliché.

Blogging That   brings  me  to  this. Strangely, I find it quite  astonishing  that  I  kind  of enjoyed   penning  my thoughts  in this  blog.  This  is the  first  time  in  months that  I found  a  new found purpose and   amazingly  I seem  to be able  to focus  on what  I want to say  clearly.  I will  keep  at it  and   see  where  this  blogging  takes  me. Wish  me  luck!





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